have i found you..

my heart hurts.
my soul is drooping.
my head is filled to the brim.
and all im looking for is a way out.
i want to flee.
to run far away.
to find that place i once new as home.
to feel the comfort. warmth. love.
but its gone.
floated away on the breeze.
on hiatus for all eternity.
no help to be found anywhere near.
no one to look in me and see sorrow.
no one to listen and truly understand.
such a lie i live.
if only it were so easy to give in.
if only lies could be made truth.
are they as happy as i believe?
why do i fool myself.
why do i do this to me.
and its getting worse.
building and building until it all falls down.
until i fall down.
i have but a thread holding me up.
one tiny, dwindling, frayed thread.
smaller and smaller it gets.
please dont break.
please hold on.
just one more minute.
thats all i need.
thats all i can take.
dont keep me here.
its not what i want.
ill sacrifice.
ill close my eyes.
if only for you.


words i wish could be some how turned into song. so true to my heart. if anyone who can write music, songs, lyrics, anything happens to stumble across this and can make something of it please, please let me know. my head is too jumbled. i cant think straight.
*the deepest sigh youve ever heard*

btw-listen to iron and wine. pure beauty.

later